these days i am becoming very emotional and nostalgic!!!! my college days are nearing to end which means time to close books and go and venture into a brand new world which is awaiting for me. its been a long journey with many ups and downs and now the destination is just a few kilometers away. i have been waiting for this day for the past 16 and half years and now when the time has come...i wish that i could turn back time and do all those things i missed out in life.

i want to become a child for one last time...come home with medals, certificates. i want to relive my childhood days...but...life has to move on and lets see where the road takes me....how many more trials and tribulations will i have to face....

"7"..probably my unlucky number.

this blog is nothing to do with numerology rather how the years 199"7" and 200"7" were completely unlucky for me and my family. how can anyone of us forget the year 1997...the world was shattered with destruction, deaths etc. right from buckingham palace to a small town gangtok...life was the same. i could only feel tension, hear cries in my house for my father had just met with the stroke and was later confirmed that he was partially paralysed. can you imagine what went through that little girl who was barely 12? she had to grow up overnight and become strong and that little girl was me. somewhere in the following year or years life was not the same and this i realised when we had to cut down on travelling and going out for movies. but at the end of the day we survived because my mother survived. years passed by and this is me today ..everything was going smooth until year 200"7" arrived and welcomed us with bad year. losing my uncle was the worse part and once again i could hear only cries everywhere iwent but the worse was coming to college...everything reminded me of him. i have heard history repeats itself and now i truly believe it does!!!

the intensity of miscommunication

well i have to admit it's a season of losing your loved ones or maybe the beginning of new relationships. i firmly believe nothing remains the same forever. now i understand the meaning of miscommunication...how intense it is and how it changes your life forever. this is exactly what happened between my friend and i...she refused to listen and i refused to explain. i thought how arrognant and stubborn she is for not listening and blah..blah....!!!! at this point in life i showed some maturity...i remained quiet and made the class believe she is right and i am wrong. there is no point in blaming one another. getting supporters would obviously mean to one person that she is wrong and the situation would worsen. so i was smart enough to back out. i wish she could have clarified her doubts rather than react aggressively right away but that is not my grudge. i felt hurt when she said i was dominating...me and dominating doesn't go together. anyways, i have now decided to bury the friendship.
so guys out there...be calm and clarify the doubts before you get violent.