Now that I have started my blog all over again......I simply can't resist myself from getting logged in frequently. Today I am super happy and now you may ask why???? Fine!!! To begin with finallly I scored well in my AIMCAT. I guess now I am becoming even more confident. I wanna jump around, sing n dance but I am in the cafe and people will think I am MAD!!! Nevertheless, save the best 4 the last!!!!! Damn I should stop smiling....people are looking at me!!!!!

tomorrow is our Independence day!!!! And I am feeling super patriotic for reasons not known to me. That brings back to me to topic and i wanna share with all of you the following opinion of my favourite actor Rati Pandey:
"Iam super proud of my country because:
1. The unity and co operation that India and Indians showed during the terrorist attack in Mumbai.
2. People who irrespective of their position and status are still stuck to their roots and make efforts to make other's lives better.
3. Kiran Bedi.....The woman of substance"
Ok! 4 starters...she is a well known television celeb. and an alumnus of Miranda College, Delhi Univ. She has specialized in eco (hons). According to me, she is one of the most well read celeb in our industry and I look up to her. guys, don't go by her looks...she is a wonderful human being.
Her opinion has put me in dilemma....I am questioning myself, "why am i proud of my country....?" So simple yet so difficult.....time 4 all of us to wake up and think what is it that makes us proud about our country. Get over Gandhi principles and start thinking practically. Hopefully I will be able to answer this question by next Independence Day!

thats it 4 2day!!!! I need to run bk home lest these cafe guys will throw me out.
bye !!!! n those who read my blog....happy independence day/ happy sawtantra diwas!!!!! oh yeah..try asking the question urself too that i have raised above.

I am back again after a gap of almost 2 years

Last night I just realized that even I have blog. It was long forgotten and when I got myself logged in and went through some of my post....it brought back tears to my eyes. Tears of happiness, tears of sadness. Those were the days when blogs were "in thing" and it is still.....and will continue to be!! I also realized that all my post are in running letters and now when I have put up a courage to make my blog public, I have no intention of editing. It has some special memories hidden behind it. Now lets come back to the present date.

Mumbai:
It's been almost six months I landed in this city of dreams. I wouldn't say its a beautiful place but the people here have definitely made me feel special. Its like a second home for me. Two years back who would have thought that one day I will end up in this place. Currently I am attending coaching classes for CAT 2010. Strange!!!! sometimes I can't believe that Iam actually going to appear for CAT.....but I am confident. Initially I used to feel so demotivated......there were times when i couldn't solve a single problem and I used to question myself, "are you really serious about CAT????" ......and.....now.....Iam regaining my confidence level again and this time it is not going to die down.
My classmates are very sweet. Not even once did they make me feel that I was different from them. When my lecturers look at me and talk with me....I feel wanted...the feeling is simply undefined. These little gestures may not mean anything to many people but for a person like me who has left her home behind means alot. I try to find my happiness in these little things and try to laugh, smile and make others happy as much as I can. People complements me that I have a beautiful smile....I try to make full use of it!! For some reason I feel that when I laugh and smile than the whole world is admiring me. Maybe its just an imagination but I am happy....so don't wake me up and make me face the truth that my imagination is false. It will break me down.....BIG TIME!!
Train journey is something that always leaves me in awe. The kind of crowd I meet is UNBELIEVABLE. People really loves to travel in crowded train. I have a phobia of being in crowded place so I have to praise myself for putting up a brave front. "In order to get over the phobia.....you have to face it!!" I guess this is Gods' way of making me face the reality. It's true "REALITY SUCKS". Nevertheless, I am begining to love the ride as long as its less crowded. Music and cool breeze....your hair flying like a heroine makes you feel like as if you are enacting a scene from a romantic film or serial where everything is so perfect!!!! Oh! I simply love that feeling though I know its just the opposite, there is no harm in dreaming and Mumbai main toh log heroine bana kay liya ata hai (people come to Mumbai with dreams of becoming actress....).....lol!!!!! Atleast I don't fall into that category but then if the opportunity knocks my door....you never know!!!!! I may just switch my MBA dreams to acting!!!!
Girls of my age are mostly into shopping n clubbing but these things doesn't gel with me!!!! Instead, I prefer to visit Bandra Bandstand and just walk around!!!!! I am not even interested in meeting bollywood stars. People wait aimlessly outside Mannat House just to get SRK glimpse, under scorching heat during daytime. I feel amazed to see them like that. I also have my own list of stars that I would like to meet but then waiting outside their house is simply not my cup of tea. But then that is also one form of passion and before I leave Mumbai I guess I will also try to experience that passion but not for SRK but instead my favourite couple Arjun and Rati!!!! If I can meet them then its almost like meeting SRK and Kajol. CRAZY ME!!!!!
That's it 4 today!!!!!

if you like my post ...do comment!!!!! and if u dnt like it.....plz still comment!

these days i am becoming very emotional and nostalgic!!!! my college days are nearing to end which means time to close books and go and venture into a brand new world which is awaiting for me. its been a long journey with many ups and downs and now the destination is just a few kilometers away. i have been waiting for this day for the past 16 and half years and now when the time has come...i wish that i could turn back time and do all those things i missed out in life.

i want to become a child for one last time...come home with medals, certificates. i want to relive my childhood days...but...life has to move on and lets see where the road takes me....how many more trials and tribulations will i have to face....

"7"..probably my unlucky number.

this blog is nothing to do with numerology rather how the years 199"7" and 200"7" were completely unlucky for me and my family. how can anyone of us forget the year 1997...the world was shattered with destruction, deaths etc. right from buckingham palace to a small town gangtok...life was the same. i could only feel tension, hear cries in my house for my father had just met with the stroke and was later confirmed that he was partially paralysed. can you imagine what went through that little girl who was barely 12? she had to grow up overnight and become strong and that little girl was me. somewhere in the following year or years life was not the same and this i realised when we had to cut down on travelling and going out for movies. but at the end of the day we survived because my mother survived. years passed by and this is me today ..everything was going smooth until year 200"7" arrived and welcomed us with bad year. losing my uncle was the worse part and once again i could hear only cries everywhere iwent but the worse was coming to college...everything reminded me of him. i have heard history repeats itself and now i truly believe it does!!!

the intensity of miscommunication

well i have to admit it's a season of losing your loved ones or maybe the beginning of new relationships. i firmly believe nothing remains the same forever. now i understand the meaning of miscommunication...how intense it is and how it changes your life forever. this is exactly what happened between my friend and i...she refused to listen and i refused to explain. i thought how arrognant and stubborn she is for not listening and blah..blah....!!!! at this point in life i showed some maturity...i remained quiet and made the class believe she is right and i am wrong. there is no point in blaming one another. getting supporters would obviously mean to one person that she is wrong and the situation would worsen. so i was smart enough to back out. i wish she could have clarified her doubts rather than react aggressively right away but that is not my grudge. i felt hurt when she said i was dominating...me and dominating doesn't go together. anyways, i have now decided to bury the friendship.
so guys out there...be calm and clarify the doubts before you get violent.